You wanted me to be adult. Ok. I am. I was thinking about stuff you said for some days and... you know I have something to say.

Firstly, RELATIONS. Yes I don't have a boyfriend at the moment but it doesn't mean I'm looking for anybody to be my boyfriend. I guess not having a boyfriend and being looking for a boyfriend are not the same things. Actually that's two absolutely different things. Don't you think so?

Secondly, PLACE TO STAY. Well It was not me who suggested staying at your house, right? I even didn't ask you about it, right? You saud: "If you come, you can stay" - right? So for three months I was thinking I don't have any problem with a place to stay in Japan but you know there is no much time untill the day I will come and I needed to know for sure. I tried to ask you not once, not twice... maybe for 10 times but every your answer began with "well". I could not understand what it meant... Well I didn't want to believe in obvious thing. But when I asked you a direct question and you answered "well" I realized your "well" means "you could but...". But what? I know you don't want me to stay. I undersood that. And I don't want to be annoying. I don't want to disturb you. I don't want to make you to get mad and nervous. But I could not understand why you said what you said when I was in Japan. What it was? Politeness? I would like to know...

Thirdly, MONEY. It's the most difficult stuff to talk about. Believe me I thought a lot but I could not find anything to make you to think in that way. You told me about your ex-girlfriend, about your trouble with a french visa, about possible way to solve that problem... But she said: "I don't want to get married for a reason". What did you feel at that moment? Remember. I know for sure it was hurtful. Why do I say it to you? Because you did the same thing. Of course sutiations are very different but the sense of thing you did is the same. I'm not your girlfriend and never was but also I never pretended to your money and you knew that. You knew that as well as your ex-girlfriend knew that getting visa was not that reason why you had made a proposal. And I try but can't understand why people do all that stuff.

And finally... I would like to give an advice to you... Don't just listen to people... Try to see their feelings and maybe... some day... you can understand who they are. Just that.